And That Just Happened...Last Night

Just when I thought, someone I know(and was close with), telling me that I leave "bland" comments on their Facebook statuses, was insulting...someone I know(and wasn't so close with), asked if I was "expecting", last night.  In the span of a month, I probably lost about 10 pounds.  Not to mention, I wear a size 4, in pants.  Sure, I have big titties but they've always been there.  Nothing has changed.  Apparently, I wasn't wearing a flattering enough shirt and said "friend" thought I was pregnant.

I couldn't tell if he was just being an asshole/dick just to insult me (said person has flared up drama with me, before) or if he was dead serious.  All I know, is that one of my best friends politely jumped down his throat and owned him.  To say it was the ULTIMATE AWKWARD MOMENT would be an understatement.

No Forever Here

Nothing lasts forever. Sooner or later, everyone leaves you. If you're looking for forever, quit while you're ahead. Instead, enjoy the now and the precious moments you have with people.

Letting Go Is The Hard Part...

 photo courtesy of  Sweetney.com

So, I've gotten the closure I needed. At least, I think I did. Dealing with a socially awkward person and getting any type of closure is a very hard thing. Trust me. He graciously gave me what I needed, I guess.

I've missed my friend for months. I had hurt for months. And I wasn't ready to let go because I had no closure. It all boils down that he wanted to cut ties, right now. In the back of my mind I feel like I did something wrong. Everyone is telling me I didn't but I obviously did if a so called friend actually needs to cut ties with me. I can't be that much of a distraction for one person. Anyway, it is what it is. At least, he doesn't hate me. I think that was the only good thing to come out of it. Besides the fact that when we see each other on the street or at friends events, we'll be civil and courteous to each other. Does that make him an ex-friend now? I don't know what to call us, at this point.

Will we ever be friends, again? I don' t know. In all honesty, I hope we do. We shared a lot together. But, I can't dwell on it and wait around for it. It's not my loss. I'm a damn good friend and I need to focus on the positive and keep my mind focused on the friends who actually want to be around me.

I sit here and can say that I can finally just let go and do my thing. The next time I see him, I'll just tip my head to him and walk on by.

There's more I can say but he really doesn't deserve any more of my time. I'll just end it, here.

Pretty Much Sums It Up

Quite honestly, it is. Of course, I'm the brave one that will be in your face to let you know exactly how I feel. Whether it be friendship, relationship or what-have-you. So, this isn't about me. Safe distance is cutting off communication and then when you see me, you either act like nothing has happened or you're just being fake nice to my face to save face. People just need to brave all the time. It's just little ol' me. I'm not that irresistible.

This...

"I'm In Here", by Sia, pretty much tells the story of what I've been secretly going through for the past few months. It's hard to admit it, but it is what it is and I've been holding it together as best as I can; Moving forward, in the process.

Men Equation

MEN = FRONTERS

They tell you what you want to hear but don't follow up on what they tell you.  They either ignore you for a week at a time or just act like nothing happened. Man the fuck up!  If you want the person in front of you, take it.  If not...kindly tell that person. Don't fucking string them along. It's as simple as that. Why is that so hard??